This post is
dedicated to my: "The one that got away"
Dearest, I keep
telling myself that you are one of the most beautiful "miracle" that
had happen to me. Our story was a beautiful tapestry woven with knits of
emotions and love. We were then the perfect portrait of young love. I really
don't know what it is in you that makes me so enchanted. And believe me, until
now, a mere thought of you brings PVCs in my heart. :)
It has been years
since we had a good talk. Well, I really
don't know if that was a "conversation" we had last last last (and
last? :D) year. You know, I was too shy. Your mere presence kept me spellbound.
I just couldn't fathom the reality
of "you and me" in that
beautiful moment. Perhaps I was just too happy. And my heart was at peace
having you as the subject of my sight. Then eventually.. All words dissolved
but for the first time, I was contented :')
Just recently, you
passed by my pacified stream. And once again, you've charmed the stillness in
me. Since then, I was kinda.. "hoping". But then, I/You/We never had
a chance to end/begin (once again).
End.
Once again.
Well, It was I who
"ended things up". And you know what's the reason behind. It was
kinda "immature" for us to act "mature" on that issue. I don't know.. Or was it just me. That phone
call.. I can still recall that striking question you posed. Whenever it crosses my mind, I can’t help but
laugh and yet.. regret. And that was our last "serious" talk..
Begin.
Once again.
Begin. For now, it is such a "foreign"
word. Whenever I associate this word with our "relationship", I just
can't paint "beginnings" with you. When are we going to begin..once
again? I miss you. I miss our
friendship. I miss making new beginnings with you. Can you begin with me once
again?
Time
passed.
We were involved in
different activities that somehow mold us to be the persons that we are right
now. I want to tell you personally how proud I am on the different
accomplishments you've just attained. I heard that you are happy on the things
that you do. Thinking of you and your contented disposition makes my heart at
peace. :')
MovING
on..MovED on.
I've moved on. And this time, I'm telling
this with certainty. Thank you for the beautiful memories we've created. Thank
you for making my childhood colorful, for making me believe that indeed I'm
beautiful, for bringing me closer to God, for allowing me to smile and live
life with vigor, and for teaching me how to love LOVE. :) I'll forever cherish
"us".
This
will be.. The Last Time.
Of course, there
will never be "Last Time" for us. I think I will always be waiting
for you to come back home. You're my friend after all. And our friendship
spells FOREVER. But, this will be "THE Last Time" that I will allow
my heart to breath with hope..and to wonder if You and I will end together.
Nope..not anymore. :)
